My poor belly button

I had to pee. I had to pee so bad I thought I was going to burst. So off to the bathroom I ran. So as I am sitting on the throne, I start to examine my body. I examine my body all the time now. I look to see where this roll is going and how far I think it can stretch, and usually am amazed at how much my skin can now stretch. But anyway back to the original story. So I take a quick look at my belly button to see how well my incision is healing and low and behold it looks disgusting. The doctors didn't put stitches in it, they glued it shut. And now the glue is not holding anymore and it looks all red and puffy. So I pull the rest of the glue off (and there wasn't much to begin with) and I notice that it is split open. "Just fuckin great", I think. So I have one more hour to go at work and my belly button is split wide open. "Just fuckin great", I think again. Now what the hell am I supposed to do. So I go into panic mode. I pulled my pants back up and run to the medicine cabinet at work. And thank the good Lord above, it is nicely stocked. So I pull out some cleaning wipes, some bandaids, some antibiotic ointment, some medical tape, and some gauze. I run back to the bathroom and take my pants off. I don't want to get anything on them as I am performing surgery on myself and I needed the flexability to be able to move without contriction. So there I am standing in the bathroom at work..no pants...no panties...butt ass naked. Nice picture huh? I get myself all cleaned and bandaged up and put my clothes back on and start to leave the bathroom and guess what?!....In my intense rush to fix my belly button, I totally forgot to lock the freakin bathroom door. WHAT THE HELL!!!!! Thank God that no one needed to use the bathroom during my "surgery", they would have had the surprise of their life. So after all that I got to thinking..."should I call the doctor...should I call my aunt the nurse....what the hell do I do now?" So I call my husband and he starts to gag on the phone with me as I am describing my belly button...he's no help. So I text my aunt the nurse and ask her what I should do. I of course have taken a picture of my split belly button and send it to her and she texts me back saying 2 words in caps...CALL DR. So that's what I did. And when his nurse called me back she told me that I did everything right and no she didn't need me to send her the picture by picture message, and if it gets bigger or gets red to go to the ER. So now here I sit at home with 6 bandaids, 1 whole packet of triple antibiotic ointment, and 2 gauze pads on my belly button. You would have thought I had got shot the way I had "bandaged" myself up. My husband laughed his ass off when he looked at it. I didn't think it was very funny.

P.S.. I won't gross you out with the picture. My husband wouldn't even look at it. He such a pussy.

Just some updates

So I know I got stalled again on blogging. Sorry is all I can say. Hopefully I can get better at this and start learning how to blog from my Blackberry. But anyway, let me update on whats been going on shall I?

So two and half weeks ago I woke up at 2:30 in the morning and I was in the worse pain ever. Imagine being in a ring of the UFC kickboxing and getting kicked in the stomach over and over. Not a pretty picture right? So I laid there in bed until my husband woke up to go to work and told him I needed to go see the doctor. Well, with the other symptoms that I have experienced in the past month such as blood in my stool and some abdominal pain, he admitted me into the hospital. So after having CT scans, ultrasounds, an endoscopy, and an anal exam they found out that my gall bladder is full of gall stones, I have a hernia, and to top it all off a hemroid. So much big fun! (Can you smell the sarcasm?) So this past Friday, I had my gall bladder removed. I'm glad it's over, but I am not enjoying the feeling of being uncomfortable and not being able to sleep through the night. So after I had surgery, I ended up having to stay in the hospital for two nights due to me not being able to breathe correctly. I just could not take deep breath. It felt like a band around my chest. So I was on oxygen for the 2 days I was in the hospital. But now that I am home, and on Percocet, I am feeling much better. I am going back to work on Thursday so I better get my butt in gear.

Another update:
I have finally hit the 100 pounds lost!!!! And I am also under 300 pounds now. I never ever ever ever wanna see that number on the scale again! When I got up on the scale and saw that I was 299 I stood there and cried and cried. I cried like a person who just won the lottery. I feel on top of the world. I felt like I could accomplish anything. And I realized that if I want to do something, all I have to do is put my mind to it and I can do anything.

So all in all, everything has been going well. My sister's baby is almost due (October 4th) and we've had her two baby showers that came off amazingly well. Plus she is having a girl and that makes it even sweeter. And I am so excited to be a aunt again!! So once I get the blogging from my Blackberry down pat, I can start to keep up with the blogging aspect of my life.

So much to do...vent a little....

I am horrible at this blogging thing. I know that I am supposed to do it more often, but then I get caught up in life. You all have it. It's like an infection that blisters and bleeds. Its laundry, dishes, cleaning, working, and trying to fill in a little of summer fun.

So a little update:....drumroll please.......I am now at 97 pounds lost. I am just so thrilled! I can harldy wait to see the 100 pounds lost. And then when I get to under 300 pounds I am gonna take a picture and I want to never see that number again on the scale.

I have been working so hard, watching what I eat and pushing myself a little harder each day. Since my little accident with my knee, I have been afraid to walk. But I am hoping that one of these days I will be inspired enough to get back out there.

So about my job. Now don't get me wrong, I love my job. I love the people that I work with, but I don't love the customer base. They are the whiniest, bitchiest, tantrum to get their own way people. Sometimes I just want to scream at them and say, "This is not freakin Burger King, you can't have it your way!" I am sorry that it is my fault that you don't have a cell phone signal in your house. Apparently it is my big bertha ass hovering over your house and blocking all the signal. I'm sorry. I apologize more at work than I ever have. I believe in what I sell and love the business that I am in. But hell, do they have a school to teach people to be assholes? Sorry for the little vent. I guess being off work for 2 days has given me time to reflect and to realize that I don't want to go back tomorrow. I don't like the feeling of not wanting to go to work. I used to love work.

So basically the moral of the story is this. That person that is serving you today is someones daughter, son, mother, father, sister, brother, and friend. How would you like if someone treated them like crap? I live by the golden rule. Treat others how you would want to be treated.

I have been lost...sorry

Sorry it has been a long time since I have completed a blog. I have been busy with work, getting myself hurt, and trying to get over some personal emotional pains.

Just doing a little update for you all out there who thought I must have been abducted by aliens. As of today I have lost a grand total of (drum roll please.....) 83 pounds. I am feeling great and looking great. It is so nice to have people who haven't seen me in a while say to me, "WOW Katey you look great!" It just really boosts my confidence and my self esteem. I am really starting to feel better about myself. I don't make fun of myself and I don't put myself down as much as I did before. I always thought that if I made a joke about my weight before someone else did I more or less beat them to the punch. I thought it would not hurt as much if I did it myself. But what I didn't realize it that I started to believe what I was saying. Which all in all is worse than having someone else make fun of you.

But now that I am down to 321 pounds and so close to being under 300 pounds, which by the way, I have not been under since I was 17. I am noticing things that are helping my mental image of myself. I notice that my legs are not as ghastly as they used to be. They are looking a little slimmer and not as bumpy. (Yeah, a great mental image for you.) My face is the huge improvement. I smile a lot more. I look good when I smile. Here is a pic of my husband and I at Kelley's Island a couple of weekends ago. I had my hair back in cute little pigtails.

I like having my picture taken now, and I take my own picture all the time now.

But back to updating....so back in May I went for a walk after I got home from a stressful day at work and I went by myself. I didn't wait for my husband and I wore my new Teva sandals. So here are my 2 mistakes...not waiting for my husband to go with me and wearing sandals. So after a good 20 minutes of huffing and puffing and jamming to music, I turn the last corner near my house and I started to slow down...now picture this....I am walking on the sidewalk and right next to the sidewalk are these huge shrubs and one the of the shrubs has a limb that is hanging in my way so as I come up on the hanging limb, I grab the limb to move it out of my way and casually step into the grass and didn't realize that it was soggy muddy grass and slip and fall down. Now when I fell down I didn't just fall..I fell down on my knee on the raised corner edge of the broken sidewalk. So now I am trying to turn over and I am lying in a puddle of soggy muddy grass. I am more worried about my cell phone than I am my throbbing knee. As I turn over like a under cooked egg (all floopy and falling apart since I was crying), the owner of the house comes out and asks my if I am okay. I tell him, "nooooooo I am not okay. I think I sprained my knee." Then he askes me if I need help up. I laugh and tell him I didn't think that he was going to be able to help me. Then he tells me he is going to bring the car around. All I could think of was that he was going to try to pull me up with his car. I didn't want to embarass myself anymore than I already had. So by the grace of God, I got up on my good knee and just raised. I actually think that God was there and he put his hands under my arms and pulled me up. So now I am jumping home on one leg and my back side is soaked wet with mud and grass. I have grass in my mud soaked hair and I have dirt streaked on my face mixed equally with my tears. As I reach my house and went through the door, I totally let my sobs go. I forgot I had stairs. My husband must have heard me crying cause the next thing I knew, he threw open the door and asked, "what happened to you?" I just cried harder. I just put my head on his stomach and cried like a little girl. He helped me up the stairs and helped me strip my clothes off and then he helped me to the recliner so I could sit down. He saw my knee and said, "Holy Shit!" I looked down and I had blood oozing down my right leg and a huge gash in my knee right on my knee cap. So off to the ER I go. After getting stitches near the bone, I have to get 3 stitches to hold the skin together. I was on crutches for 4 days and then was just limping around for a month. It is now healed up and I am walking fine. Thank God.

Update on "Bucket List" ~ I can now sit in booths are resturants with no problem. I actually have plenty of room between the table and my belly. I am so excited. Now when my husband and I go out to eat we always sit in a booth. Loviiiin it!

So I am going to try to do updates more often. So stay tuned.

Kelley's Island

So took a little break from blogging and focused on work and myself and realized that I am getting better at watching what I eat and watching my moods. Today off all days was a crappy one. I wanted to share my little mini vacation that I had this weekend with my hubby.

On Friday morning we woke up around 7:45 to start to pack and to start the anticipation of the fun filled weekend ahead. I had packed the night before so I more or less had to just get my husband to wash his clothes and get them packed. Our friend Ray was going with us and he met us at our house at 10:45. So finally around 11 am we were off...to Wal-Mart to get food and supplies. Around $80 bucks later we were on our way ... to my work to get a disk for my laptop so that I could get on the internet while we were on the island. Then we were really on our way.

The ride to Marblehead to get on the Kelley's Island Ferry is about an hour from where we live and I just enjoyed the ride. The sun was shining and it was a beautiful day. After we drove on the Ferry, which does take vehicles, it was only a 20 minute ride to the island.

Once we got on the Ferry, I just started to let the stress of work, money, and life wash away and I told myself I didn't want to think about anything stressful or worrisome. I was just going to let the island wash away my worries. And it worked.

We got to our condo and our other friends, Nick and Diane, were already there and they were out driving around the island. I was so excited for later that night when our friends Denny and Susan were going to meet up with us at the bar Bag The Moon. Denny is a DJ (click here for his website) and he was playing Friday and Saturday night. Now Saturday was the Kentucky Derby and I knew a big party was coming. And of course I forgot my big floppy hat. Dang!

Here is a picture of some ladies and their hats!



(Here is a picture of Bag The Moon Bar)

Here is a picture of Denny and Susan (we call them Mom and Dad):


Here is a picture of Nick and Diane with their mustaches. (Mustache story: Denny is Mexican and he does a character called "Julio". "Julio" wears a mustache and tells funny jokes and stories. So we all have mustaches and play along with it. Like my husband has a t-shirt that says on the back "Julio's Son", mine says "Julio's Son's Ho", and Susan's says, "Julio's Ho". It is our favorite part of the night.)

So we unpacked our stuff and we went to go have dinner at the bar as they were having all you can eat fish. Now I don't do the all you eat anymore so I had a gyro and I pretty much ate half. My husband ate the rest. But is was oh so good. Then Denny started playing. I love to hear him sing. He also plays the guitar and sings all kinds of songs. I could listen to him for hours. I have told my husband on many occasion that I would rather listen to Denny sing a song than the original artist. He just laughs at me.

So the weather started getting a little chilly and of course I was feeling a little frisky so I had a strawberry shot. Now a strawberry shot is a big strawberry that is holed out and a strawberry ligquer is poured in it and topped with whipped cream. Of all things that are holy these are the best things! They are sooooo good. So of course after my second one, I realized that I do get drunk a lot faster. Boy was I feeling good. I was lettin loose. I was dancing like I haven't danced in years and of course Susan was there to take pictures. And no I am not posting them and she promised me that she would not put them on Denny's website. (Susan you better not even think about it!)
So Saturday morning came and we again went to the bar for breakfast, yes we ate food and didn't drink our breakfast. I had half a breakfast sandwhich. Now we all have this running joke that once you eat, check your watch and pray to God that you can make it to a bathroom in the next half hour. I think the reason for the dumping is because the grease they use. It is like car oil. Actually I do believe it is car oil now that I think about it.

So for the rest of the afternoon we drove around for a little bit and went to see the glacial grooves, the beach, and of course the house that we want to buy when we win that damn lottery. But enough of daydreaming.

After we were done driving around and seeing the sights, my husband let me go through the shops. And I love going through the shops. But I was dissapointed. They haven't got all their new items in for the summer seeing as this was the opening weekend for Kelley's Island. I was so sad. So I went back to the condo and veg'd and read my book.

And later that night we had a little surprise birthday party for my husband Kristian. He turned 27 on April 26th. I decorated a 3 layer german chocolate cake for him. Now I didn't have any cake and I was really wanting some, but I didn't want to miss the bar by being in the bathroom trying to get rid of it. So no cake for me.

Now that night at the bar was a whole new story. The place was packed. I have never seen so many people. They ran out of all beer and strawberry shots. And of course we had some fights and some people got arrested. Oh well. What a night!

Here is a picture of the empty cooler:


So the funny story of the next day was as we were leaving the island we decided to drive around once more and just see the sights one last time. So we are on a dead end road and my husband is trying to back up to turn around and BAM! he backed into a freaking tree. Now we drive a Lincoln Navigator and it is my baby so of course I freaked out and jumped out of the truck while yelling at my husband. I run to the back of the truck and of course, no damage. Now if I would have been the one backing up the bumper would have been pushed in and the back window would have busted out.

Here are some random pictures from the weekend:

(Ray and I at the bar)

My hubby and Me:



Some crazy drunk guy with a stuffed horse around his neck.



Awww someone is tired at the end of the night. He actually was snoring!



On the way home, I feel asleep and as soon as we pulled in the driveway I woke up and all the worrys came right back. Ugh I hate real life. Why can't I win the lottery?


UPDATE:

So all in all, I have been doing great and losing weight. I have lost 60 lbs and my pants are starting to fall down. In fact, last week I was walking outside of work and I stepped on the hem of my pants and pulled my pants down to my kness. Thank God no one was around, but I bet the security camera saw me. Oh well. They got a show. I feel so good. I have more confidence and have so much more energy. I can bend over now and still breath. I do it just to see how long I can go before I go lightheaded. (Right now my record is 5 minutes). People up at Kelley's probably thought I was doing yogo or something because I did it on the back deck. Just me, bending over, looking at my watch to see how long I could go. I am dumb. I know. You're laughing now. It's okay. You can.

So the food that I have been addicted to lately is the tuna and crackers packages for lunch. It is the perfect size. It has six crackers and a little can of tuna and a small tube of low fat mayo. It is so easy and it fits in my purse. Now I know a small child could fit into my purse (I actually did put a baby in my purse just to see if she would fit. She did.) but I am just saying that if you had a small purse, it would still fit. I love these things. They are so good and fill me up and a great source of protein. Yea for protein! I have been trying to eat more meat and less carbs. Fruit is still bothersome for me unless it is in a yogurt and I am so burnt out on yogurt that I just haven't been able to bring myself to eat it lately. So no fruit for me. But all in all I am doing great. Lovin life and lovin to win the lottery!

I'm Back!!!

Sorry that it has been so long since I have last blogged. I have just been busy with going back to work and reading the Twilight series. I am soooo in love with Edward Cullen. If I was not a happily married woman, I would so be his stalker. I am on the third book and just addicted to them. I just cannot put them down. Here is a pic of Edward from the movie:


See, what did I tell you. He is just so dreamy. Yeah, I did say dreamy. I can't wait until the next movie is out. Each book just gets better and better. If you haven't read them yet, you must! I demand it. When you do read them, let me know how you like them.

But on to bigger and better things. Update time!!! Yes, I know you have been waiting for it. So I have been stuck in my 350's for a while and been very disappointed. I figured it would go faster, but then just yesterday I weighed in at 350 and then today I weighed myself again and I weighed in at a very cool 348. I am so happy. I was so excited and so proud of myself and I just stood there and cried. I was going to take a picture of it, but I haven't had my toenails done in a while so maybe my next goal. So now my new short term goal is 300 lbs. And I am working harder than ever to get there. But while I was stuck in the 350's I was looking for some inspiration to help me get my butt in gear and I found this picture:
Everytime I see this picture I just laugh to myself and think I came this far I can do anything. Plus the fact is that I hate Dr. Phil and believe he is devil's spawn so it makes me angry and makes me want to prove him wrong. So it works for me. Hope it makes you laugh.

Next update is that my clothes are really starting to not fit. And I am soooo loving it. I have to hold my pants up when I walk and my shirts are really looking baggy and sloppy on me. My husband even remarked to me that he wishes I would not wear my favorite sweatshirt out anymore because it is so big on me. Although it made me mad that he would say anything like that, but then it made my day that he is actually noticing also. Little milestones..gotta love em'.

My food intake is much better. I have found my favorite food is tuna and I love buying those lunch packs that come with tuna, crackers, and low fat mayo and I make a meal out of that. It's quick and easy. Plus it has great protein and it fills me up. I have been struggling with some fruit like oranges and pinapple and I really miss them. But for some reason the acid in those fruits make my pouch feel tight. On Easter I made my favorite Jell-O salad. It is lime jello with pinapple, cream cheese, and pecans. It is so yummy that I made some more for this week. I of course use sugar free lime jello and low fat cream cheese and it makes a great healthy snack full of protein from the cream cheese. YUMMY! Here is the recipe:

Katey's Lime Jell-O Salad

2 boxes of sugar free Lime Jell-O
1 can of crushed pinapple
1 cup of chopped pecans
1 box of low fat cream cheese

Make the jello-o according to box. Let set for 3 hours. In large mixing bowl put in the jell-o and the cream cheese. Mix with a mixer until creamy smooth with some chunks of cream cheese showing. Put mixture into a suitable dish and mix in pecans and pinapple and put back into refrigerator to set over night.

I eat this for breakfast, lunch, and dinner and I just love it. I hope you like it to. I am starting to experiment a little more with my food choices and still making sure that everything that I do eat is low fat, low sugar, and low carbs. I am feeling better, more healthier, and have much more energy. I am also sleeping better. My boobs are not getting in the way of my airways anymore. Not that they are disappearing (Thank You God!) but they are getting just a tit bit smaller (I even make myself laugh, ha ha ha).

So you remember that my last blog was the night before I was to return to work? And do you remember how nervous and sad that I was going back to work? Well, it wasn't so bad. I didn't realize how much my coworkers missed me and how much I was actually needed at work. It made me feel good that on my day back to work people were exclaiming how much I had changed and how good I looked. I guess I really needed that.

I am the type of person that needs attention and needs compliments. I am learning a lot about myself and I am finding that I really didn't like the person I had become when I was heavier. I was angry all the time and I was hateful towards people because of all the hatred I had towards myself. I am working on myself one day at a time and I am becoming a much happier me. I was told the other day by a customer that he can tell real beauty by someones smile and how geniune it is. He said, "you are very beautiful inside and out." I was a little taken aback, but I looked in his eyes and just smiled because I am finally feeling beautiful inside and I guess my outside is finally catching up.

~Highlights of my day~

1. Answered the phone at work today and got 3 new activations with 2 Blackberrys out of it. Rock on!
2. Waking up this morning with a smile on my face. Must have been dreaming about Edward.
3. And last but not least, weighing in at 348. Stoked!

Snow...WTF????

Mother Nature hates Ohioans. It is April 7th and we have 3 inches of snow on the ground. On Sunday, I heard that there was a chance for snow but I laughed it off. Then yesterday, some snow showers started and I still thought, "okay a fluke..it will go away. It won't stick". Boy was I wrong.

So I started to think...maybe mother nature is playing a trick on us and she is going to start reversing our seasons. So maybe next week we are going to have leaves on the ground, then we will go to summer and then spring. Or maybe we are just going to be like Alaska now and have winter all the freakin time.

am so sick and tired of the whiteness. Is it ever gonna end?????? I am gonna move to California or Florida. Oh, and hey mother nature...we hate you too.

The scene from my living room window.